i used to feel like california...now i feel like carolina.

i don't like selling paint. i don't like stocking it, shipping it, receiving it, nor mixing it either. i need a real job. i'm not so sure about the teaching thing anymore. i dunno exactly why, but it has lost a lot of it's appeal. probably because every high school kid i see i do not care about and they are annoying. i ask myself if i really want to surround myself with those kids for such a prolonged period of time. my initial answer is no, cause they piss me off. i dont know what to do anymore. winning a large sum of money would fix this problem realy quickly, but i am such a bad lotto player. i never win.

tomorrow night i play broadway joe's for the third time in three months. i think i am beginning to become a regular.

i think i have outgrown south park. i still think it's funny, but it seems to have lost some of its appeal. and now i think that isaac hayes is an idiot. he got all pissed cause south park made fun of scientologists and left the show. said he couldn't take it anymore, the way south park dealt with religion. matt stone said hayes never voiced any concerns or had problems with them making fun of christians. just scientologists. stupid chef. i guess they killed him off. too bad.

i'm gonna sleep now cause i am tired. and i lied last night. i was sleeping. i think i was just getting to sleep when the phone rang. despite my incoherence, i still told kim she did not wake me. but she did. and i dont care. it was nice talking to kim. it should happen more often. i think i might visit springfield in may. i should decide that soon.